its been a long time since i posted huh? school has been quite ok these few days... BUT, i still hate that school! cant imagine that there's a school with such LOSEY toilets! the toilets are so damn DIRTY, UGLY, SMELLY! im not trying to exaggerate, its the fact! IM SERIOUS! haiz.. but wat to do.. i will be stucked in that school for 4 YEARS! IMAGINE THAT!
OH MY GOD!
cohen is really getting up to my nerves this few days... NO! is WEEKS! haiz... giving jus homework everyday.. talking non-stop.. talk like a bullet train.. no idea wat the heck he is talking about.. no idea wat language he is saying.. ARGH! DOG SHIT LA!
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO! i have so many things waiting for me to do.. i only have 2 hands, 2 legs, 2 eyes, 2 ears, 1 nose, 1 mouth and 1 BODY! i cant split into so many parts! IM GOING CRAZY! if someone is here to help me, how good will it be! when will i find someone that is really suitable for me??? WHEN? WHEN??? everything seems so fast, so impossible... my body and my heart is not doing the things that my mind is asking them to do... I CANT POSSIBLY LIKE HIM RIGHT? u noe its him! OMG! wat is actually happening to me! im not supposed to like him right? or am i? haiz... i have so many questions but no answers to them! HOW? HOW? AND HOW?????
the only things i can do to relax myself, to calm myself is to sing or draw! OR, being alone... daydream is the best thing... NO! sleep is the best cure ever... RIGHT? HEHE!
if being happy can relieve people that im alright, im willing to act jus for them.. really... acting is easy.. but trying to act it as though its real.. its rather difficult, and the scariest thing is.. im afraid i've already master it already..