wow.. studying at Hai Sing is far more difficult then i thought.. i thought i could cope with everything that is coming up to me, but i realised i can't.. seriouisly, i really cant.
if there's a shoulder for me to lean on now how good will it be.
if there's a place where i can leave all my thoughts there how good will it be.
if there's a place, that could make me laugh my ass out, how good will it be.
if there's a place that have no problems, no sadness only happiness, how good will it be.
if i have a fairy godmother, how good will it be.
but the things above are all IF, and its so impossible. i cant jus wait like that, i got to go and grant all my wishes myself! but the problem is, how am i going to do that?watever i do, its all not right. or either, everything i do is not right, i seriously dun noe why. i jump down the building, some ppl may care cos i jump at the wrong time. some ppl scold me, ask me why i dun jump earlier. some happy, cos at least i jump liao. some sad, cos i die le. these are stupid reasons, but it may be true.. so, watever i do, i'm doing it for myself. for myself!i try not to think about others, but am i able to do it, when im such a busybody? i tried to focus on my studies, but i jus cant concentrate at home.. and that is the worst problem! haiz... i'll stop complaining for now.. BYE!
