today in school doing posters... zzzz... for the traders day thingy lor... claudia, shi jie, amanda, shi jie and me drawing for the keychain wan mahs... then needa think of a name, so we think like so damn so long lor... then finally claudia came up with one.. BEADO! so we used it la... no choice ma... but its cute though! hahas! then i draw finish 3 poster le.. they haben even draw one.. LOL! then claudia "i feel like boxing u lehs" lol... something like that la... forget le, STM! = =" watever la... then lehs.. before that, in the morning we went to com lab mahs.. then teacher let us do anything we want.. then at first i intend to blog anot really nothing else to do lehs.. then si han came to sit beside me.. so at last did not blog.. anot later she very the sian.. so we went to paint...we draw a person first.. its so cute lor 'like real'! then we colour colour colour.. the skin colour is purple i think... ok its really so damn "cute"... LOl! si han keep on laughing then shi jie was like running around? cos the com all very lag mahs.. then whenever u wanna go into a web or go somewhere la, usually will take some time.. so she started going here and there...then after that we started toking, escape theme park thingy la... they planning to go bahs... then we like so siao lor... HAHA! i did not save the picture of cos... actually i intend to lor.. but is school com so did not save... =X

then arhs.. today in class ***** looks so .... dunnoe how to say la... like something happened? i did ask him la... i asked u ok not? wat happen? but he said nothing arhs... i didnt continue asking cos is like people or even he himself will think i oso not his mother or watever i ask so much or care so much for wat.. or worst think i very busybody or kpo then so pai seh... but at last he said he bored mahs.. then nothing to do.. then he seems like finding excuses? watever la.. he went back to normal after he came back from the washroom with jon.. dunnoe whether he acting not la... but to me he seems like.. but i cant say anything wat, cos im not even confirm with it... but since he's "back to normal" then leave it lor.. i cant do anything right? but seriously im quite concerned la... =\

ok... thats enough about him le... WA! i tell u all arhs... chinese class that time.. can say very boring can say quite fun la.. teacher toking about lesbian and gay mahs.. in chinese is "tong xing lian".. LOL! then that idiot eugene tan go throw the so called campus? the sharp point throw at my back.. then i shout "OUCH" lor.. luckily teacher never hear sia.. but really very pain lehs... hai yoyo... gonna get back on him arhx! hahas... hais.. we all still doing the "san zi jing"... really very sian lehs. SERIOUSLY! dunnoe why teacher dun think its sian lor... oh ya! she ask us to go back and think about dunnoe wat thing.. hmmm... let me recall. i think is like wat is ur dream? in chinese i think is "zi yuan"? dunnoe la.. but i really dunnoe lor.. last time thought of it before but now no.. last time i so damn like being a teacher sia.. but now dun think so bahs.. i realise its so tiring.. LOL! hmmm... wats my dream? maybe is, get into U? hahas... a person hu dun even like to study oso can have this dream.. hahas. = =" but i do hope im able to get in la.. go poly but go U .. if like that can arhs.. then good lo.. but actually its not impossible lor.. in poly that time u gotta really work very hard la if u really wanna get into U.

ok.. now lets see, still got wat thing happened today? hmmm.... "thinking hard" oh yeah.. after school me and sj went to the aircon coffee shop there eat.. we saw amanda and her family and saw jav, chi keat, daryl and jordan[i think].. amanda so us.. but jav they all never.. LOL! watever la.. then after eating lehs.. we went to the coffee shop [upstairs on] to buy french fries.. then sj was saying that now that uncle give very little lor.. last time everytime give full one then noe give about half only lor.. LOL! but its quite true la.. they should not suddenly drop so much wat i thought? should like drop bit by bit.. anot later ppl will think like they very stingy like that... hahas! worst is scared nobody go and buy arhs, or maybe lesser people so buy.. LOL! watever la, i care so much for wat sia.. oso not i selling.. hahas... i siao wan la.. so the people who read my blog right.. after reading will think.. i really very lame.. boring until like that mahs.. no choice.. XD

ok, i think thats enough for the day le bahs.. ^^~ BYE PEOPLE!

* hope he's alright.. =(

wat is going on man! why are things happening the way it is not supposed to be??? my life really sucks alot man.. so many unhappy things happen in one go! WAT IS THIS! one of the days i will go mad... i cant take it anymore! ok u noe wat... i had a tiff with my mother on thursday ok.. she's like totally change? ok, in the past she seldom calls me when im out with my frans... and thats before PSLE! but after PSLE i dunnoe wat gotten into her.. she always dun allow me to go out? then when i go out and i came back a bit later.. she scold me.. and when im outside she keep on calling... i thinking is that her? but i feel like telling her this on thursday when i got home u noe.. cos she doesnt allow me to go to my teachers house.. its hari raya! and she doesnt allow me to... wat the hell is this.. ok this is wat she said to me when i called her to ask for her permission...

ME: mummy, can i go vist my teacher?
MOTHER: for wat? come back now for dinner.
ME: for a while onli..
MOTHER: where is her house?
ME: blk 102.. very near our house onli..
MOTHER: u go there for wat.. she eating her dinner now, then u go there see her eat arhs.. and she allow u to go her house mehs?
ME: forget it la! i go home now la!

at that time im really very angry, why she said that.. sometimes i really think she's really unreasonable u noe.. but at that very moment i dun have a choice, so i raised my voice.. and after saying i did not say bye or watever and jus put down the phone.. i was about to cry.. but i bare with it.. and i walk up to shi jie and tld her.. i go home first.. hais.. then he saw me about to cry.. so he went up to me and asked me i ok not.. then i did not answer him at first.. then he ask again.. ur mom scolded u? then i jus nodded while rubbing my tears away.. he said again can u go home urself? then i nodded my head again.. ask again u sure? i nodded once again.. then he said ok then take care bye.. then wat i said? i said bye la... then walk off quickly.. hais... at the moment i really want to tell him this u noe..THANK YOU SO MUCH *****! hais... but i wasnt able to.. i cant even open my mouth and talk to him.. i dun noe why.. hais.. walking halfway... i realise that shi jie green packets were with me.. so i called her.. i told her i will return her on monday.. and she ask me again.. am i ok? of cos i had to say ya.. then we talk for a while then we put down..

when i reach home.. i did not call her... i jus throw my bag on the chair... and walk into the toilet.. then when i came out.. i took my bag and was about to go upstairs when she said, come and eat.. then i said I DUN WAN TO EAT LA! [in chinese] then i went upstairs.. then she scolded me say,u dun always throw ur temper arhs.. then i did not bother of cos.. then i went to take a bath.. when i bathing i was crying at the same time.. hais... i really have no idea why things turn out this way u noe.. i dun noe wat am i supposed to do, to get away from all this! its killing me!! ARGH! i need a shoulder to lean on, to cry on..

oh ya.. this is wat i wanted to say to say.. mummy why are u so unfair to me.. krsital jie o level u also let her go out.. u oso never keep on calling her or never let her go out.. then i after psle le why cant u jus give me some space some freedom! kim jie, krsital jie they go out until wat time u oso never scold them, never even say anything lor.. then why the person u like to say to is me! its really very unfair u noe... kristal jie never study u oso never say anything.. why u like that one... then u keep saying why i like to compare with others.. then i can say u oso compare me with hazel wat.. then why u have to compare with her.. u can compare with shi jie oso wat why must it be hazel.. and if i dun compare how would u noe? i bet u dun wan to learn her attitude right.. then please stop comparing me to her!

hais.. thats wat i wanted to say u noe.. but at last i didnt.. since she did not say anything.. its no point of me saying this... hais.. ok thats for now.. bye people! =(

HAHA! lets recall the things about last saturday k? i no time post la.. or maybe lazy??? LOL! okok, now lets think... hmmm... last saturday arhs.. oh, i forget!

okok.. now lets see.. AH HUH! that day i wake up quite early wors... but the night before i sleep very late lehs.. LOL.. then i go change all this.. wanna go whitesands top up my ez-card.. then about 9.50a.m. like that i rmb i needa collect something from izni.. then need to go earlier mahs.. so i quickly leave house lor.. then walk to whitesands, stay there for 5 mins then walk back again.. damn tired lor.. u people should try it.. then later i call izni.. then she say she cant come out already.. so i no choice lor.. have to go find her house, collect her gift to emerson from her.. then after walk back to the bus stop.. then finally i can sit down and rest my "ke lian" de legs... HAHA! then when i look up , the sky is like OMG! so dark! meaning gonna rain le lor... SEE,


and arhs.. i forget to say.. i walking back to the bus stop that time.. emerson call me, tell me they change timing, he say they 11 then leaving house... cos they realise that 11 reach there abit too early le.. then i was like.. wat the.. why never realise earlier sia.. then i no need so early wake up le lor.. =X but i say nvm la.. i reach there early lor.. have to say like that wat.. anot wat, scold him arhs.. LOL.. btw, this is wat izni gave emerson [but onli the outer sight of it nia] ^^~


then lehs, the bus finally came... BUS 53! hehe.. then arhs... then.. then... i go up the bus la.. LOL... then wait and wait and wait.. and FINALLY reach terminal 1!!! but so early lehs.. about 11? then i walk to burger king.. then sit down there, ALONE! then lehs, dunnoe why all of a sudden my head pain like hell, like will faint any moment sia.. and finally casper came.. but HE NEVER SAW ME LOR! he just walk past! ARGH! no choice... i take my things.. go find him.. he at another end... he's with his three other frans bahs.. 2 from taiwan 1 from china de... then i sit at the table next to them lor.. = =" then arhs, he ask me wanna eat anything not.. then i shake my head lor.. then he keep asking then i keep shaking lor.. LOL! oh ya! and the stupid emerson come so late lor.. about 12?? then he got call casper go counter mahs.. maybe take their tickets bahs.. then left me and his three frans.. i like so pai seh lor.. then suddenly one of them ask me how old am i, then of cos i say 12 la.. after that we speechless again... zzzz.. and this is their air ticket... [emerson de]


they algiht at KAOHSIUNG i think.. and arhs, their flight no. is 1668! hehe.. i looking at the big board that time hoh, i go blurr blurr look at hong kong lor.. i keep thinking they flying to hong kong.. then after that i rmb they all going back taiwan.. LOL! siao right me... haha!after that i dunnoe which part of taiwan they flying to mahs.. forget see emerson's ticket.. so i try to see the photo i took .. then finally i saw... the flight no. is 1668. then i see la.. is kaohsiung.. LOL! and they taking the china airline.. XD then i wait until about 2.20p.m. lehs.. the time they daparting..




LOL! i took casper photo secretly.. =P if he sees arhs.. can say bye bye to all of u le.. LOL! kim jie say casper quite handsome lehs.. LOL. then she say emerson the looks too kiddy le.. LOL! then i keep on laughing sia.. but true wat casper more handsome then emerson wat... onli izni dun agree.. LOL! thats why cannot say emerson not cute or not handsome in front of her de.. she will go mad.. but i still keep on continue saying la... =D


and lehs... IZNI THIS IS FOR U! XD enjoy seeing.. but hoh, i still think he not cute lehs.. he looks quite... dunnoe how to say lehs.. izni, this is for u,



















then after sending them off lehs... juliet jie go pick me, then we go eat fish N chip! hehe! we go to the fisherman dunnoe wat one la.. but there the fish N chip really very nice sia.. but abit too much nia.. the fries bahs.. then there arhs.. the deco very cute wors... see for urself..






WA! so many people sia.. we went to bugis street shopping after that.. XD but all the things there hoh.. dun really suit me la.. so im jus window shopping.. LOL!


kim jie say she very ugly wors... but i dun think so lehs.. wat about all of u.. do u think so? LOL! i noe la.. i very the bo liao.. very the lame.. but really nothing to write le mahs.. so i anyhow write lor.. anot wat to do? =X




dark dark seh.. but the sky so nice sia.. i like it! cant see the moon.. is cresent moon i think... very the nice lor.. but too bad.. i take le, but cant see... anyway we went to blk 85 and eat our dinner? the ba cho mee there very the nice lor.. but then lehs.. anot of mosquito.. then make my leg so itchy lor.. hais..


then arhs... we went to wash car.. hehe.. cos juliet jie say lehs... her car very dirty.. =X then the car behind us hoh.. wash until so funny.. but no time to take.. cos they clean off le.. but can take other part of it washing! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!



okok.. lets stop here.. i really had no idea wat to type anymore... hais.. okok! BYEBYE! ^^~

yesterday arhs.... we played badminton, soccer and frisbee in school! XD hahas.. so fun lor! but during chinese class not that fun liao.. teacher teaching "san zi jing", i almost fell asleep lor.. javier abit more then sleep liao.. lol! but really very sian lehs... u all can try lor.. not even 1 period u all sleep liao.. LOL! cos we in mdm li's class for a certain time le.. thats why we still can make it through her lessons.. anot we mati arhs! LOL!

say until playing soccer.. jon, alex, kenzie, jav and that ivan arhs, damn pro lor.. pro like siao! they play hoh is like, WAH! LOL! then i anyhow kick wan... dunnoe how to play mahs.. hai yo! LOL! then claudia not feeling well so we never play le lor.. anyway tired le mahs.. then we saw teacher playing frisbee, so we play oso lor.. hahas! then we play game, gals against boys, but some boys come to the gals team la... anot the gals loose for sure liao! LOL! but actually play frisbee quite fun wors.. serious lehs. XD how i wish everyday can like that man... if that mrs chin not in school everyday then good liao lor.... haiz.. but dunnoe whether will not... unless she dun scold us la, then we can play le! hahahahahaha! ya la, she wun scold us, but she will scold the teachers de.. then later teacher needa write report again... then that stupid chin will talk and talk and talk during the morning assembly... hais... why got such principal sia... = ="

anyway, i yesterday went to cut my hair oso wors!!! hahas... some say ugly some say ok la... shi jie oso cut le... she damn pretty lor! ARGH! so envy her sia.. hahas! but she really very pretty sia... cannot stop saying! haha! then kana scolded by her, cos i keep looking at her! hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! watever la... jus saying tat she is really very pretty jiu shi le! ARGH! PS: SHI JIE I LOVE U !!! HAHAHAHHAHA!



i dun tok about yesterday le... hmm... talk about today! today i never go skool wors... heard from people that, p6 damn lot people never go! HAHAHAS! our class onli about 17 people go nia.. LOL! so damn pathetic lor.. dunnoe teacher teach wat sia... LOL! luckily teacher never bring them go play anot will miss it sia.. then will regret like hell.. hahahas.. i at home sleep until so shuang! GAGA.. and heard that my class in class read storybook arhs! LOL! sian arhs sian arhs! heng arhs, never go! anot we bored until rot lor.. lol! cannot continue saying le.. gotta go! BYE!

haiz... today told him not to bother about the email... rather myself be unhappy than other people... hai yoyo... u noe wat i told him, dun bother the email la.. i yesterday siao wan.. = =" but since tell him this le, then forget about it le la.. today i trying to act happy but instead of happy i acted siao and stupid... i saying hi to everybody lor... walk past people or people walk past, hi! LOL! but jus trying to tell people that im happy.. but when they ask why i so happy? im speechless but to tell them, cos i happy lor.. no reason.. hais... have to bluff wat anot wat to do...

anyway today in class damn sian lor.. we doing the traiders day thingy... our class doing the beads and some game stores.. then so unfair sia.. 6.2 today got p.e for 3 periods lor... then the last 2 periods they went to the hall play paper aeroplane.. then we at the com lab do the movie maker thingy... i rather not go lor.. dun like going com lab actually.. jus go there for the sake of going... LOL! then in chinese class even more sian... we noe wat we did.. so called moral education.. "san zi jing" then memorise like hell lor.. then now still mus memorise... jia lat.. jus now trying to stuff the "san zi jing" things into my head lor.. then finally now, i am able to... hahas.. i scared is teacher ask us memorise the whole book.. then i rather die arhs... i abit already half dead liao.. whole book, ha! the onli thing i will say is bye everybody! LOL!

then today i see her face hor, dunnoe why even more "qian bian" sia.. serious lehs.. almost give her punch man... if i really did that right.. i will be damn happy lor.. her face will blue black, then she will be damn pretty lor! HAHAHAHA! i noe i very bad la, but i jus cant stop hating her.. argh! i guess she oso bahs... most slightly? she totured me for so many years, and now its my turn.. but i guess i cant though... hais.. forget it la.. 1 and the half more month nia.. bear with it la, unless she did something really make me unbearable then i will will cant control myself and beat her sia! i have a feeling that she will do something, making me really hit her lehs.. ARGH! if i hit her then everybody will go to her lor, maybe she cry, then all the boys will scold me then go console her.. then she will be damn happy lor... IDIOT FREAK LA SHE! trying to get the boys attention onli... "hu li jing" LOL! hais.. lets stop here for now.. bye!

i hope i did not hurt him though... but if i dun tell him earlier, im afriad that he might ended up like *****.. haiz... forget it, since i said already, i cant change the fact...

***** arhs.. i think we should jus be frans u noe... i'm afriad that i might hurt u like how i did to ***** and *****.. u're a good guy.. everyday can see that.. but i'm not good enough u noe. i have a unhappy history it may affect u if we're together.. so i rather we jus be good frans.. i hope u understand.. i really dun wanna hurt anybody anymore... enough is enough. as for now, i dun think i wan to be in any relationship.. i jus one to be frans, frans and frans.. jus frans, with any guys or any gals.. its hard to mantain a relationship, like wat happen to me and *****.. we thought we can mantain it forever, but u see, wat happened. he got hurt.. and its because of me right? i really hope not to hurt u.. really.. can u pls dun ask me about this thing anymore.. i decided for a very long, then i decided to tell u this.. pls dun let me regret. i dun have the guts to tok to u about this face to face or through the fone.. nothing will be coming out from my mouth.. perhaps i am scared to hear ur voice.. anyway, i really hope u can understand, yeah? lets jus all be frans.. bye..

pearlyn.

psle over le should be happy wat.. but dunnoe why suddenly think of her... it seems like i wun dun think about her.. she jus cant be erase in my head... like she will be superglued in my head lor..... if really like that arhs...i rather jump down the building and jus end my life arhs... everybody think i dun dare... true la i dun dare but if i really want i can...

everything seems juggling inside my brain...i finally manage to keep everything inside a big big box in my but they jus came out from a it uncontrobally and float all over the place in my brain... nobody can cure the cut in my heart and my brain, even myself... she like will appear everytime in my head.. i wun noe when she will appear! i hope this will end as soon as possible... i really hate the feeling i have now and the attitude towards my frans and... him...

anyway hope that my psle will get good results.. then can go in anglican... really hope so... dun wanna disappoint daddy and mummy...